June 17th, 2023
Were your reasons true? Were they for me or for you? Was there really nothing we could… I wonder. Why was it easier to hide?
As I step forward I look back for one last time I wish you all the best
What I do Was for you Now it’s me Found self love But I still
It would be easier If I could hate you If you had so utterly decimated me That I couldn’t stand again It would be easier
To Love is to abandon All rational and logic To act out of character And find depth within yourself To love is to put your wants
I drank you in Like a fish Gasping for water Little did I know You were a shark
What I mistook for your warmth I now realize was actually a freez… You found me, built me up Then destroyed me You claim to care about me
It’s not the familiarity It’s not the loneliness It’s not the memories It’s not the safety It’s not the comfortability
Waste my time Or break my heart You don’t get both
This noose of hope Around my neck A memory rope Myself I wreck I cannot leave
Do not mistake my silence, For absence. I will always be there for you. Always. But I must be here for myself,
Like a tower of crystal glasses My hope stacks higher Waiting to come crashing down And lacerate my heart below A thousand tiny shards
Long-lost souls unite, Tears of joy in heartfelt hugs, Reunion’s embrace.
I want to walk away I want this hope to stay I’m twisted and torn My promise, I’m sworn To see you again someday
The longer I wait for you The more I prolong this pain The longer you wait to speak The more distant I become The more I heal
