Do I Still Love Him
I’ll wipe away the tears and I’ll give it one more try
And I’ll give him one more chance, to never make me cry
I thought I would die, when I learned of it again
I still hurt from the last time; my heart just couldn’t mend
You play me like a fool, and you think that I won’t leave
I’m going against what I think best, this I do believe
It was easy in the past, to walk away when things weren’t right
I’d just give up on everything, so it wouldn’t cause a fight
But with him things are different, the love within my heart
I knew the day I met him, I knew right from the start
That my love for him was special, and I couldn’t let him go
And if it took a lifetime, this love I had to show
The first time that he hurt me, I let it go with grace
The thought of loosing this man, something I couldn’t face
In all reality, I should walk out the door
Today the pain remains; I’ve been through this before
But I’ll give him one more chance, to prove his love to me
And hope within that time, his love for me he’ll see
We’ve been married 2 years now, and I look back with much concern
The many times he’s hurt me, you think that I would learn
I’m afraid he can’t let go, of this person in our life
And I’ll never understand, why he took me for his wife
Knowing she remains in the shadow by his side
And when he said his vows, he knew that he lied
I’ve learned a lot from what you have put me through
But the hardest lesson yet, is how to un-love you
I’ve learned no matter what I do, my kind of love don’t last
As quickly as it comes in your life, it can quickly become your past
I’ve learned honesty is something, that you don’t feel
And I have nothing left nothing for you to steal
I may not be great, but I don’t think I’m bad
I did nothing to deserve, a heart so sad
I’m left with no words; I don’t know what to say
I’ll never understand why you throw our love away
And his favorite words, “I’m not doing nothing wrong”
Just for the past 5 years, you’ve been stringing me along
I was searching for happiness, the kind to set me free
And you came along, my love blinded me
Being so in love and the way you made me feel
I never expected a phony, someone that’s not real
When we made love I would get so lost in time
Knowing that you shared it, completely blows my mind
I’ll give it one more try, even though it’s not the same
With me it was real, for you it was a game
I know I carry on and show so much emotion
But I lost my man, his love and devotion
So tell me how, I just have no clue
I want so bad to learn how to un-love you
I know you’re going to hurt me, I know this plain as day
I know it’s bound to happen, what else can I say
You tell me that you love me, but you’ll hurt me like before
And I truly hope and pray, it just won’t matter anymore
