Lullaby of Shame
I sing myself to sleep,
this lullaby of shame
There’s nothing left to say,
there’s no one I can blame
I can’t believe I lost control,
or how I could have stooped so low
I closed my eyes, put you out of my head
and took my friend into our bed
I don’t know why I couldn’t stop,
as her naked body climbed on top
You would be crushed I realized,
and saw your face when I closed my eyes
I just sat there when I was done,
then realized it wasn’t fun
I hung my head in shame,
with no one else that I could blame
I knew how bad that it would hurt,
as I stood up and put on my shirt
Picked up her clothes that lay on the floor,
I walked over and opened the door
As I drove home you were on my mind,
not knowing what I would find
Watching you sleep all dressed in lace,
soft skin and pretty face
I wanted to reach out and touch your hair,
but all I did was stand there
I know how you would feel if you found out,
you’d want to leave I have no doubt
The truth from you I tried to hide,
so when you asked that’s why I lied
I’m sorry I caused you so much pain,
all these thoughts drive me insane
I wish you could believe how I feel
and the love I have for you is real
You and me I did betray,
I won’t let our love end this way
I can’t explain why I wasn’t true,
but my heart belongs to only you
So just before you turn and go,
believe I truly love you so
Please find a way to forgive your man,
I promise to give you all I can
I realize I made a big mistake,
I’ll hold your heart and never brake
The promise not to ever lie
and I’ll love you till the day I die
