Ignorance is bliss
I met you at IHOP for the first time since high school
Nervous, with my dark blue hair I wasn’t sure of
You could tell that I was in pain
But you didn’t ask.
You had 4 cups of coffee and I couldn’t contain it anymore
“Are you okay? You’re shaking from all that cpffee..”
“Oh, I’m fine. I’m just nervous. I’m sorry.”
I laughed, because I thought it was kind of cute
How you were drowning yourself in caffeine
Trying to mask the smell of nervousness that masked the booth.
“Let’s ditch this popsicle joint, what do you think?” I smiled at you
Speaking in whispers of adventure
“Um, sure, where will we go?”
I knew just the place.
I drug him to my ugly and ridiculously loud black Cadillac and rushed him into the passenger seat.
“Seatbelts please!”
I drove us to the library and parked next to the playground
I couldn’t resist the itch to jump out and start running
So I did.
You laughed and followed right behind me
I stopped to reach back and tag you and sprinted as fast as I could
I felt so young again, a youthful feeling I hardly felt as a child
You snickered and made a little snorting sound
Of course, I teased you for it.
We chased each other up and down the playground
But I was just a little too fast for you.
I slid around a corner barely missing your fingertips as you reached for me
That’s when you got tired of the game.
We sat in the grass on that warm summer night
Counting stars together, laughing and sharing jokes
When suddenly you put your arm around my shoulder
At first I wasn’t sure how to react
I stiffened, and then relaxed as your warmth surrounded me.
It was nice to feel so young again, so happy
You knew how unhappy my life had been
The suffering I had been through
The tears and heartache I’d swallowed to be strong for everyone else
I looked over and realized how truly beautiful you were in that moment
The gentle breeze flipping your blonde hair around
Your bright blue eyes shining in the moon light
The way your jaw line complimented your smile
And your heart you wore sewn to your sleeve.
I was caught off guard when you rushed in to kiss me
I nearly screamed from how quick it happened
But when your lips synced with mine
The world around me melted away.
I forgot about everything.
My loss
My gain
My sadness
My happiness
Who I am.
All I knew was that this felt right
This small moment was written in the stars
Destined to happen regardless of what we turned out to be...
Regardless of the fact that in the future we would never speak to each other again
You would spit foul lies about me
Break my heart in a way I never felt before
We were meant to share this small, beautiful written moment
Because in that moment
I found who I really am.
