1:12 am
i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…
it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting
my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable
i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most
i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming
i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…
same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -
tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing
if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?
there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.
people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much
i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was
i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine
jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore
always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger