i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

i feel... “okay” really that mean i’ve been dissoci… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…