tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming