if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

i feel... “okay” really that mean i’ve been dissoci… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable