why
It’s hard to know the reason why
some day’s all I do is cry
It feels as though there’s no way out
even if I scream or shout
The outside world is a frightening place
to go out alone I cannot face
I start to tremble I cannot speak
why am I so scared, pathetic and weak
I hurt myself when I cannot cope
my life’s a mess I’m such a joke
To people I love I cause too much pain
so I stay in my room so full of shame
I need to give answers, I need to say why
but I can’t explain why I wish I could die
I sit every day and dwell upon death
wondering and planning when I will take my last breath
It’s hard for me in bed at night
I close my eyes and I’m filled with fright
What will I dream, will I wake up again
night after night it’s always the same
I stay awake from dusk till dawn
my mind is tired, my body worn
I’m anxious and stressed, worried all day
I’m scared to think this is how it will stay
It’s hard to prove you’re not well in the head
it would be easier to have a proper illness instead
But this is my life day in and day out
I don’t think this is what life is about
