pain
My heart begins to race
breathing becomes much faster
Can’t sit still, I start to pace
I’m scared of what comes after
My hands begin to shake
can’t calm down, I am not able
How much more can I take
my body starts to tremble
The feeling’s are overwhelming
I need to cause me pain
Voices inside my head are screaming
taking over my brain
To cut my skin, to bleed
use a knife upon my arms
An uncontrollable need
to hurt my body with self harm
Now I can breathe again
the shaking has calmed down
I enjoyed the pain
but my head begins to pound
I am ashamed of myself
can’t believe it’s happened again
Put those feelings up on a shelf
till the horrid voice appears again
