She looked like innocence And felt like sin And died like grace And fell like a bird And fell like a bird

Nights of chuckling After no jokes And Dancing without nerves Become me

Am I incurable? It seems so. I’m an incorrigible invalid Of the heart.

You don’t ask me to speak. You never expect my opinion. I was your second child In a runaway marriage. I suppose I loved you once,

She fell like rain, Like a bird, Like a comet chasing light, Like a star dropping from the nigh… Like a stone in water,

Sam said, “Get over it.” As if I could Just climb a tree. Sam said,

Why am I crying? I’m not crying at the loss of love… I’m crying because I never experi… True love. I wanted epic.

While I’m alone, He’s with her. While I’m crying, He’s kissing And rolling

I don’t understand. I don’t understand the cruelty The darkness The fear This choking feeling.

Mom, I miss you, And I’m miserable. I miss grandma, And I’m so lonely. I miss being a kid.

I love John. I love when he cries. When he looks at me, I fly.

In my daydreams, I used to be an acrobat, Flying through air Into capable hands. In my dreams,

I find it funny That I raised myself From the cradle To the grave. I never got a chance to be a baby.

I woke at 3 a.m., And I was scared. I thought I’d never be tired agai… But then I remembered the morning And all the joy it brings.