It Still Hurts
I don’t know what to feel.
I know it’s from your past.
But you can’t let it define you.
What you said tonight
Was unacceptable. But
You didn’t mean to offend.
I didn’t mean to pick.
That was only a small part
But it hurts.
It hurts that you’re hurting
Because of what I said
Carelessly speaking,
Not thinking of how my words
Were going to affect you.
I hurt you to no end
And I can’t take it back.
It hurts that to me
It seems we lack trust.
That you don’t fully believe that
I am truly in love with you and
That no one could change that.
I know it’s not true, that it’s
Because of your past, and
I am learning to accept.
That doesn’t change the fact
That it still hurts.
It hurts that I am surrounded
By people who care
But I still feel completely alone.
They sit next to me
Trying to help
But nothing will work.
I feel like I am by myself.
Alone in my emotion
Being dragged down by the man
With his black dark cloak
Hiding their love from me
It hurts that I turn to a friend for help
And he tells me it’s fucking stupid
That we even try.
I shouldn’t care what he says
But when I feel alone like this
His words, they hurt,
Though they’re not true.
I do know true love.
And I found it in you.
But the words..
They still hurt
It’s not your fault
That I feel this way
It’s not only because
Of what happened tonight.
That was just the point
Of no return; the trigger was pulled
Drowning all coherent thoughts
With nothingness.
And it hurts like hell.
I want happiness
Yet tears flow from my eyes
I want to sleep
But I’m afraid to dream of you.
I’m happy because
Neither of us will give up
But I’m still sad
And it still hurts.
I need you.
Your presence, your love.
Only you can take away my hurt.
