Lady j.
Transforming from whom I used to be, into whom I have become, and still achieving everyday graciously into the woman I am meant to become.
I am in a place in which I don’t belong,
where it all feels wrong.
Where I am a tad bit out of place, and I am faster than their pace.
This– my blood, my dna,
does not match the person I am today.
I am slowly but surely changing,
it’s easy for some to forget me,
because I no longer look like that ugly duckling.
The one you may remember me as, the one you bullied in the past.
I am not that individual I once was.
Believe and Trust. These are just my private thoughts.
I am on a journey in which I have already started embarking on.
The person I use to be is now gone.
I am recreating, not just relocating
the person I was, use to be,
is no longer me.
The sad girl has been buried.
And now as you can see,
I am too ready able and willing to succeed.
I continue with a smile on my face, letting you know I am truly happy.
Look at my two beautiful children, my loving family.
Built from the ground up,
with little to no assistance, and no resistance.
There were struggles and sacrifice.
Times I asked God why
I had to suffer the tears I cry,
and yet every night I looked at the sky -
knowing I had to continue to try,
this was not the time in my life, for failure. . .
I may not be a celebrity, not rich, and no fame,
but way too hell bent to make myself a name,
so when you think of me, shout out praise .
I, even if the only one, thank God for The New Amanda J.
(2014)
I know I am not the same as where my roots were made to make up me, and I accept that fully !
