10:43 pm
i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most
tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing
my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable
if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?
i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,
jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore
i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming
it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting
i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was
always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger
i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call
people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much
same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -
i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…
i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go